Being Back

I have now been home from The World Race for about 2 months. My time at home has been so special with my family and especially with the Lord. I've been able to do a lot the things I've been wanting to do since being on the race-painting, designing clothes, taking bubble baths, etc. It's been so good and after a year of being thoroughly uncomfortable it's been nice to be comfortable again. But through a few events and a lot of refinement, I've realized a lot. 

I can't be comfortable anymore. I can't go a whole day sitting, doing nothing. I can't forget the things I saw this last year. I can't forget the tears I cried over the injustice and brokenness I saw in the world. I can't forget that orphan. I can't forget that one dying of AIDS. I can't forget that one. I still cry, pretty much everyday. I cry because I feel like nobody understands except for my AIM family. I cry because our churches are filled with lots of people, talented musicians, and a preacher but no Presence. I cry because I miss my church-on the dirt with 10 africans worshiping God with all that they have. I cry because so many do not know and live in community, but on the race that's all we had. I cry because I feel like a lot of the believers of 50 years plus really don't KNOW God, Jesus, or the Holy Spirit. I cry because its hard being surrounded by televisions, entertainment, and materialism when all I want to be surrounded by is the Lord's presence and my brothers and sisters. I cry because it's disgusting how easy it is to fall back into the American way and mindset. I cry because I feel like the race was just a dream, that it really didn't happen. I cry because I feel like those I met will never hear the name of Jesus again. I cry because that one HEALED of AIDS may go back to his old ways and the healing be in vain. I cry because I know I can't just sit back and not be apart of that one orphans life. I cry because I know I have to go back. 

 I have to go back. Someday. I have to be apart of what God's doing. So please follow my journey, come be apart of what I'm doing and what God is doing through me and in me! Much love:)